Are you constantly stressed out about money? Or to be more precise: the lack of it?
It seems like a stupid question, doesn’t it? Everyone is stressed about money. It’s the “modern world.” We make an X amount, the bills add up to X, Y, and Z, and the math never seems to favor us. We live in a perpetual state of lacking—lacking resources, lacking time, and ultimately, lacking happiness.
We look around and think, “That’s just how life is.” We assume only the “rich” are at peace, while the rest of us are destined for a lifelong struggle, punctuated by a few fleeting moments of joy on holiday before being sucked back into the 9-to-5 rat race.
But I’m here to break it to you: Your money worries aren’t actually about the money.
The Subconscious Decision of “Not Worthy”
It’s hard to believe when the bills are sitting on your desk, but your financial stress is actually a reflection of how you feel about yourself internally.
Every interaction you have with the external world—including your bank account—stems from your relationship with yourself. If you made a subconscious decision as a child that you are “less than,” “insignificant,” or “unworthy,” you will experience a “lack of resources” your entire life.
It doesn’t matter how much you earn. If you feel “not enough” inside, you will never feel like you have “enough” outside.
My Journey: From Budgeting Obsession to Inner Peace
How do I know this? Because I lived it.
A few years ago, I started making a decent income. I was very comfortable. Yet, I was miserable. The more money I made, the more afraid I became of losing it. I was obsessed with “rainy day funds,” pension investments, and hyper-detailed budgets. I followed all the financial advice, but the more I looked at the numbers, the more desperate I felt. I realized I was nowhere near the level of “secure.”
The insecurity wasn’t in the spreadsheet; it was permeating my life.
How I Started Enjoying the Money
I’m not miserable anymore. I didn’t win the lottery—I healed the emotions.
With the help of a specialist, I looked at those deep-seated feelings of being “small” and “lesser than.” I accepted the fear that the world wasn’t a secure place. I integrated those parts of myself and healed the internal void.
Now, I can finally enjoy life. I can feel the sunshine on my skin without a cloud of financial anxiety hanging over me. I’ve realized that when you heal the internal sense of “lack,” the external world stops feeling like a threat. You stop living for a distant retirement and start living in the moment.
